I’m in a slump, but I think that’s become abundantly clear, and really there’s no need to be redundant. I’m at the moment sitting with Ellie, letting her watch a movie (of course she chose the Little Mermaid). I can’t quite lean back on the couch because my upper back and my shoulders are insanely sunburnt!!!
Since I had decided that I’d do my best to just “DO something” and headed out to the garden, I felt a glimmer of that feeling of satisfaction from pulling the heck out of the weeds that were there…but in my haste to forget my mopey-ness I skipped that whole sunscreen thing. I was wearing a strapless dress, and the sun decided to graffiti my back. Ok, maybe not “graffiti it” – but it certainly left its mark. No hiding the affair the sun and I had. At least I won’t have any bra or strap lines on my back…still, I don’t ever get dark, I just peel, so there’s NO up-side. Oh well. It’ll be over soon.
Life for me has taken on an uncanny resemblance to the last 50 meters of a horrendous race: desperation and yet the feeling of a HUGE accomplishment being just a few more steps away. It’s as if I’ve trained for this time in my life, and yet I feel like, “WAIT!!!!!!!!!! It wasn’t supposed to be this hard! I’m prepared!” Many of you who have hardly taken any risks in your life will say, “I told you so” but you really have no clue. It always amazes me when the people who have never moved outside of their comfort zone decide to say that. *Of course, I’m not judgmental or anything!*
The last few days have been full of family visits (which are awesome), swimming, cooking, and “getting through.” I hear say that life will continue to move on….I can’t wait!